Month: June 2009

i still wake up in the morning thinking i am in africa. i wake up hopeful. hopeful that i will hear the roster crowing. hopeful that i can eat fresh mango and pineapple. hopeful that i can have my quiet time under the palm trees. i still wake up wishing that i could harvest another…

i stood in target this week. in awe. awe of the amount of things we have. awe of the amount of things we think we need. i stood in target listening to a ten year old boy complain because he “needed” a new video game. i stood in awe. i stood in awe at the…

thank you. thank you for all of your support. thank you for the prayers. the letters. the pictures drawn with crayons. the phone calls of well wishes. the tears. the hugs. the financial support.the nights you spent on your knees. thank you. because of you i have had my life changed forever. because of you…

so tonight i tucked you into bed with all of your blankets and stuffed animals and kissed your sweet faces. and as i listened to you say your prayers i started to miss you. i will miss the way you make me laugh dancing around the house. i will miss the way you ask if…

you know the feeling when you don’t know if you are going to throw up or cry? that is where i am at right now. in three days i leave for africa. hot. rainy. foreign. away from my kids africa. just now i think i threw up a little bit. i am scared. i am…

i am so blessed to have amazing friends. amazing. since i live about four hours away from all of my family i rely on my friends. i think of them as my family. and i am a family girl. it hurts my heart to think of my mom so far away from me. i am…

a few months ago our family dog kizzie had to be put to sleep. she had lived a great life. her days consisted of following the kids around, eating the cookies they would feed her during snack time, trying to scare away the squirrels in the yard, and taking many naps. but when she could…

i quit my job.in this economy i quit my job. i wasn’t let go. i didn’t get sized down. i just quit. i quit because in the last three weeks that i haven’t worked i have slept better than i have slept in years. i quit because i was waking nightly with dreams i couldn’t…

last night my baby sister graduated from high school. now to some that may not be a big deal. another sister another graduation. but i remember eighteen years ago at the age of sixteen that my mom told us she was having another baby. i literally wanted to melt into the wall. seriously? how could…