the school year usually starts for me with a trip to target. full of crayons, markers, binders, too expensive calculators, and backpacks that last half a year. i usually end the trip with a headache and upset child who didn’t get all the supplies she just “had” to have. this year school is starting a bit differently. trips to the library. a trip to the county fair. meetings with other moms. and a lot of prayer. a lot.
God had whispered to me earlier in the spring that i was to ” protect her soul”. i knew what He meant. i knew who He meant. i just choose to ignore it. yet as the school year ended and she continued to come home in tears and asking to not go back to school i needed to stop ignore Him. to say that i haven’t wrestled Him over it isn’t true. i was so against homeschooling or unschooling . i am married to a public school teacher. i am all about school sports and packing lunches ( okay so not in to packing lunches). i have heard opinion after opinion on the subject. but i really thought God was joking. i was not smart enough, patient enough, organized enough, brave enough. yet as i continued to pray and think about it. He continued to whisper ” protect her soul”.
see i have realized i am not enough. but He is. He will give me the patience. He will give me the words to say. He will put others in my place to show me the way. He will give me support. He will give me encouragement. He is enough.
so here is to a school year with less target and more of Him.