Sheets twisted in sin.


When I was in college they let me be a  R.A. I know. Stop laughing. Ok. Now I am laughing. Because just re-reading that they let me be an R.A. means someone thought I would be a good example of someone to count on seems laughable to me now. Yeah. “Me” in college was not any of those things. I was more of what you call a Birkenstock-wearing, Indigo Girl-loving, music-enthralled total opposite of an R.A. kind of girl. But somewhere in there someone thought that I had potential. Someone saw redemption in me.

As part of our training, the director of Residential Life and all of his staff invited us to participate in a particular exercise where we all sat in a circle and they asked us to remove our shoes. Or sandals. I sat there thinking, ok, here is the part when we walk over the coals or something adventurous like that.

Instead, they knelt before us and washed our feet.

I sat there and watched as a man I admired and respected for speaking truth and going against the grain held my foot in his hands.

I cried that entire evening.  I wondered how he could even want to touch my feet.

Dirty with years of walking the direction that I wanted to go.

Years of being tangled in sheets of those I never knew their names.

Years of standing by the well waiting for Jesus to say my name.

To call out truth in me. And there he was.

The most beautiful act of love.

Washing my feet twisted in the guilt of sin. “ If you, oh Lord, kept a record of sins, O Lord, who could stand? But with you there is forgiveness, therefore you are feared.” Psalm 130: 3-4. Knowing full well that I reminded him more of Gomer than of a leader.

This is what I know to be true. A sin is a sin. Pride is a sin. Anger is a sin. Promiscuity is a sin. Gossip is a sin. Overspending is a sin. Yelling at your spouse is a sin.

I did not come to Jesus because everyone posted on Facebook or tweeted that the choices I made  were sinful. I came to Jesus because someone knelt down and washed my feet.

This Lenten season I plead to you, the women of the well are all around you.

We are continually untwisting ourselves from the guilt that sin strangled us with .

We are aching for redemption. We are aching for our feet to be washed.

Wash more feet this Lent, sweet girl.

“O Israel, put your hope in the Lord, for with the Lord is unfailing love and with him is full redemption. He himself will redeem Israel from all their sins.” Psalm 130:7-8

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  1. Thank you for your heart! These are the exact things that I have been wrestling with myself. I gave God the “big sins” of my life a long time ago. Trying to give up the “little sins”, mainly arrogance and pride. I pray we all find someone today who’s feet we can wash.

  2. I love your words! “Someone saw redemption in me”. What a beautiful way to think of that. Thanks for sharing today!

  3. Thank you for cleansing my heart with your words!!!

  4. Thank you so much for sharing this. It is such a good reminder that servant hearts reach unbelievers over judgemental hearts! Beautifully written!

  5. tabithahannasmith says:

    This is so beautiful and honest. Thank you Sheli!

  6. Stephanie says:

    Wooooah! I felt like I was standing right next you while reading this post. Truthfully, I wish I was around you while your were writing it because I know the presence of The Lord was right there. “Wash more feet this Lent, sweet girl.” The humility this act requires is record breaking but God gives it in abundance to those who seek it. Thank you for your instruction and sincere thoughts!

  7. Clarissa says:

    Such beautiful honest words. Thank you.

  8. So beautiful! And foot washing is such an amazing display of humility. The church I grew up in did it as part of communion and it was always an amazing experience.

  9. Thank you for your words and reminding us that every day we need to carry our cross and walk away from sin. As women of Christ we need live different lives which resemble God, that way we can clean others feet and help them be redeemed through God’s love.

  10. this is beautiful and such truth. thank you for sharing!

  11. WOW. This was absolutely beautiful. I’m so thankful for the #SheShareTruth experiment bringing our community to a deeper level.

    Thank you for sharing your heart with us

  12. Jessica says:

    Rock on friend. There is truth here!

  13. Simple and beautifully profound. I appreciate the call and reminder, “the women of the well are all around you”.

  14. stitchedbygod says:

    “Years of being tangled in sheets of those I never knew their names.” I relate to this is ways I can’t explain, but your honesty and transparency are truly inspiring to me. Thank you for the truth of where you were and the Truth of where you are. May God continue to bless you and wash your feet of any dust that attempts to stain the beauty of the New that Jesus has planned for you.

  15. Sheli, thank you for reminding me that the way further out and further in is through the low door of humility and confession. You have shown me how dreadfully I have failed those around me.

  16. i always love to read your blog. So sweet, so vulnerable. I admire that so much about you!! Keep sharing Sheli! Your words are so relatable and always touch my heart!!

  17. Sheli, that’s really beautiful. Thank you for sharing your heart. One of my favorite verses is about how it’s the goodness of God that leads men to repentance. I don’t know anybody who was led to Jesus by guilt and condemnation. But I know oh-so-many, including myself, who, like you, came to the Savior through gorgeous, self-pouring-out, no-holds-barred demonstrations of His love and goodness. If only we could all get that and demonstrate it!
    Thank you for your transparency. 🙂

  18. Amen, sister. We need to wash the feet of others. So lovely, Shelli.

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